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miintikwaI have been considering writing here again for a while, because sometimes screaming into the void is a necessity. Of late, it's been the only thing keeping me alive.
Death looms everywhere. I am not naive enough to think I'm special, that somehow I'll escape the doom hovering over my entire country. No, I'm well aware that my doomsday clock has moved inexorably closer to midnight after this last election.
For a while, I kept thinking we might be okay, they might start in-fighting, or they'd be too stupid to do things that wouldn't trigger responses.
But the apathy or idiocy of my fellow countrymen continues to be worse than I thought. And combined with the even-greater-evil of the so-called "religious right," we are up a shitty creek and they burned the paddles in front of us all and laughed while they did it.
And so, here we are. They've introduced the new Health and Human Services plan, and it includes a whole lot of eugenics. A whole lot of "if your child has these issues, we have a great plan for them!" which boils down to "let them kids die" couched as "sunlight and exercise will fix it!"
SSRIs, ADHD meds, and a whole bunch of other medications are on the chopping block. I thought at least the pharmaceutical industry would push back. But not a peep. The democrats that are "pushing back" are basically hand-wringing. I... *sigh* I TRY to be fair. It's not like they have a single majority in anything anywhere. But fucks sake. If they hadn't been so fucking ineffectual... well. Evidence is mounting that there were election shenanigans, so maybe it was a cheat. I don't know. All I know is that they're not doing enough-- there are fucking BOOKS written about this kind of thing. Step by step guides on how to resist and all. But protests go unreported. The media breathlessly hand wrings about every bullshit action the "administration" takes, but the protests? Nah, fam. Wouldn't want Daddy to get upset. He might sue them again.
And yes, there will be legal battles, but the booger king is ignoring all the court stuff. Children in other countries are already dying thanks to that. (But, who cares about them? No one who could make a difference.) People sue, and the swastikkkar guy laughs and guts another federal agency.
It's a thousand body blows a day. As I've said before, "death by a thousand cuts takes way too long."
Literally, when he was announced the winner, I thought "well, at least I will have made it to 50." I never really expected to grow up. Even for a Gen X kid, I was weird. Likely undiagnosed neurodivergent, too much of a tomboy for the girls, and too much of a girl for the boys. Too weird and rebellious for the "good kids" too, once I found the tarot. We are the weirdos, mister, and all that.
But, I still had hope. I thought "well, maybe I'm wrong. Maybe it won't be that bad."
But, the last month have proven that wrong. It's worse. It's so much worse, because WE HAVE SEEN THIS BEFORE. At least, those of us who actually PAID ATTENTION to history.
Fucks sake, I do not understand how ANYONE can be so obtuse. So willfully IGNORANT. So willing to blind themselves to the things happening RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM. Willing to LIE TO THEMSELVES!?!? How TF does that work?
I read 1984 when I was a kid. Animal Farm was assigned, and the teacher offered extra credit for 1984 and Farenheit 451. I don't remember why I didn't finish F451, but I didn't. But I remember CLEARLY how enraging Animal Farm was to me, as a kid. And 1984. HOW, I railed, could ANYONE ignore the evidence of their own eyes? HOW could they LIE about their fellow man? Why couldn't they SEE what was happening?
Oh, self. Oh, you sweet summer child.
It's so much worse. So much worse than I even realized. Watching the lies be swallowed, the hook set, and the fishy fling itself into the fisherman's boat. A gleeful dance of death, because some nice brown lady had a weird laugh. Because some transgender person made them feel weird, and that's bad. Because some gay couple wanted to adopt, and GASP we cannot have that!
*sigh*
One of the billionty people I follow to keep from flinging myself off the Skyway bridge suggested we go out and find a nice drag queen story hour to support. I laughed a bitter, bitter laugh, because Covid killed the queer bookstore here in town. There's a Books A Million and a B&N still, but neither of those will host any gay events. Corporate changed the rules.
We have a couple trans kids at the school I do the reporting for. The registrar is a supporter, and we were talking the other day about trying to make sure those kids stay safe. She said one of them is pretty much giving up, and talked about how heartbreaking it is not to be able to PROTECT THE KIDS.
Like, as an educator, that's your whole job. Protect the kids while they learn. And this administration isn't letting us protect the kids that NEED the protection.
They're protecting the bullies.
And setting big-ass targets on the rest of us.
Death looms everywhere. I am not naive enough to think I'm special, that somehow I'll escape the doom hovering over my entire country. No, I'm well aware that my doomsday clock has moved inexorably closer to midnight after this last election.
For a while, I kept thinking we might be okay, they might start in-fighting, or they'd be too stupid to do things that wouldn't trigger responses.
But the apathy or idiocy of my fellow countrymen continues to be worse than I thought. And combined with the even-greater-evil of the so-called "religious right," we are up a shitty creek and they burned the paddles in front of us all and laughed while they did it.
And so, here we are. They've introduced the new Health and Human Services plan, and it includes a whole lot of eugenics. A whole lot of "if your child has these issues, we have a great plan for them!" which boils down to "let them kids die" couched as "sunlight and exercise will fix it!"
SSRIs, ADHD meds, and a whole bunch of other medications are on the chopping block. I thought at least the pharmaceutical industry would push back. But not a peep. The democrats that are "pushing back" are basically hand-wringing. I... *sigh* I TRY to be fair. It's not like they have a single majority in anything anywhere. But fucks sake. If they hadn't been so fucking ineffectual... well. Evidence is mounting that there were election shenanigans, so maybe it was a cheat. I don't know. All I know is that they're not doing enough-- there are fucking BOOKS written about this kind of thing. Step by step guides on how to resist and all. But protests go unreported. The media breathlessly hand wrings about every bullshit action the "administration" takes, but the protests? Nah, fam. Wouldn't want Daddy to get upset. He might sue them again.
And yes, there will be legal battles, but the booger king is ignoring all the court stuff. Children in other countries are already dying thanks to that. (But, who cares about them? No one who could make a difference.) People sue, and the swastikkkar guy laughs and guts another federal agency.
It's a thousand body blows a day. As I've said before, "death by a thousand cuts takes way too long."
Literally, when he was announced the winner, I thought "well, at least I will have made it to 50." I never really expected to grow up. Even for a Gen X kid, I was weird. Likely undiagnosed neurodivergent, too much of a tomboy for the girls, and too much of a girl for the boys. Too weird and rebellious for the "good kids" too, once I found the tarot. We are the weirdos, mister, and all that.
But, I still had hope. I thought "well, maybe I'm wrong. Maybe it won't be that bad."
But, the last month have proven that wrong. It's worse. It's so much worse, because WE HAVE SEEN THIS BEFORE. At least, those of us who actually PAID ATTENTION to history.
Fucks sake, I do not understand how ANYONE can be so obtuse. So willfully IGNORANT. So willing to blind themselves to the things happening RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM. Willing to LIE TO THEMSELVES!?!? How TF does that work?
I read 1984 when I was a kid. Animal Farm was assigned, and the teacher offered extra credit for 1984 and Farenheit 451. I don't remember why I didn't finish F451, but I didn't. But I remember CLEARLY how enraging Animal Farm was to me, as a kid. And 1984. HOW, I railed, could ANYONE ignore the evidence of their own eyes? HOW could they LIE about their fellow man? Why couldn't they SEE what was happening?
Oh, self. Oh, you sweet summer child.
It's so much worse. So much worse than I even realized. Watching the lies be swallowed, the hook set, and the fishy fling itself into the fisherman's boat. A gleeful dance of death, because some nice brown lady had a weird laugh. Because some transgender person made them feel weird, and that's bad. Because some gay couple wanted to adopt, and GASP we cannot have that!
*sigh*
One of the billionty people I follow to keep from flinging myself off the Skyway bridge suggested we go out and find a nice drag queen story hour to support. I laughed a bitter, bitter laugh, because Covid killed the queer bookstore here in town. There's a Books A Million and a B&N still, but neither of those will host any gay events. Corporate changed the rules.
We have a couple trans kids at the school I do the reporting for. The registrar is a supporter, and we were talking the other day about trying to make sure those kids stay safe. She said one of them is pretty much giving up, and talked about how heartbreaking it is not to be able to PROTECT THE KIDS.
Like, as an educator, that's your whole job. Protect the kids while they learn. And this administration isn't letting us protect the kids that NEED the protection.
They're protecting the bullies.
And setting big-ass targets on the rest of us.
