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miintikwaSo, I am still alive! I am finding it difficult to maintain the energy to communicate in my usual formats (i.e., here) because it's exhausting trying to be ME every day. I am trying to make phone calls to the congress critters and aid the resistance movement...but damn. Every day, something else hits the fan and makes me go "WHAT? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?" and...
...gah. I don't wanna live on this planet any longer. I keep trudging along, but I swear, I envy my BFF who spends most of his days asleep due to the meds he's on. I'd much rather be sleeping, lately. It's too much, some times. And I feel like I'm using a spritzer on an inferno, and I am often sad.
All that said, I'm trudging on with my plans. Books should be up on Amazon this week. I'm planning announcements as soon as they are, and I'm hoping to add to the list. I'm working on the next 2 tarot books, hoping to get one finished and ready for publishing in Feb. And then the next will be put on the schedule for March.
Patreon continues apace. I WISH I was a better marketer. -.- I know I could be reaching more people, but I don't know how. It is frustrating and makes me sad. But I will continue to beg my Patrons to pimp me, and hope that someone else hears about it and joins. I feel like I should put an upper limit on it, like "if [goal] doesn't happen by [date] I will stop," but I am enjoying the cards, and exploring the gods and goddesses. And it feels arbitrary to do that. I'm going to try to streamline the process, so it isn't costing me in time and energy as much. If I can do that, then I'll just keep doing it. If not, I'll look at what changes I need to make in order to streamline. Because that will make a huge difference. I want to get back to work on the writing.
Speaking of the writing, I should get back to that. The tarot books need some edits. Oh, and my tarot business needs pimping. Wish me luck.
...gah. I don't wanna live on this planet any longer. I keep trudging along, but I swear, I envy my BFF who spends most of his days asleep due to the meds he's on. I'd much rather be sleeping, lately. It's too much, some times. And I feel like I'm using a spritzer on an inferno, and I am often sad.
All that said, I'm trudging on with my plans. Books should be up on Amazon this week. I'm planning announcements as soon as they are, and I'm hoping to add to the list. I'm working on the next 2 tarot books, hoping to get one finished and ready for publishing in Feb. And then the next will be put on the schedule for March.
Patreon continues apace. I WISH I was a better marketer. -.- I know I could be reaching more people, but I don't know how. It is frustrating and makes me sad. But I will continue to beg my Patrons to pimp me, and hope that someone else hears about it and joins. I feel like I should put an upper limit on it, like "if [goal] doesn't happen by [date] I will stop," but I am enjoying the cards, and exploring the gods and goddesses. And it feels arbitrary to do that. I'm going to try to streamline the process, so it isn't costing me in time and energy as much. If I can do that, then I'll just keep doing it. If not, I'll look at what changes I need to make in order to streamline. Because that will make a huge difference. I want to get back to work on the writing.
Speaking of the writing, I should get back to that. The tarot books need some edits. Oh, and my tarot business needs pimping. Wish me luck.
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Date: 2017-01-31 04:16 am (UTC)Sending you good thoughts at this very difficult time. *gentle hugs*
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Date: 2017-01-31 08:34 pm (UTC)HI! I miss you!
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Date: 2017-01-31 09:27 pm (UTC)Here lies a suggestion, in case you would like it (if not please ignore like crazy and return to first line!): I have had a metric ton of therapy. The type I have had the most is the unfortunately-titled "CBT". (Read on once you stop laughing......) You may already know this, but I mean Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. Once of the things you learn is how to reframe how you look at stuff. It appears you actually enjoy a lot of the stuff you are doing to make yourself successful. If that is the case, is it really wasting time? If you're doing it with a goal in mind, you are bettering yourself and your situation one way or the other. *insert positive spin here* From the outside, it appears you are doing amazing stuff! Just saying. Go you! :)
Now, back to FLUFFY BUNNIES!